He is Gracious

It’s funny when God knows exactly what you need without you saying a word.

Now, this shouldn’t be profound to me. I know that God is all knowing so obviously he knows my thoughts, needs, and emotions without me speaking.

Right?

I’m starting to see that if I had to sum up my experience with God during the past 3 years of college, it would best be described as a balancing act between receiving God’s grace freely and doing works to earn his favor.

I usually fall into the mistake of thinking that if I just do (fill in blank), then God will do what I want or what I need or what I think is best.

I often miss the fact that my prayers or quiet times aren’t magic spells that God is waiting for me to perform so that he can move in my life.

The concept of salvation by grace is so foreign to me that I’m not sure I’ll ever grasp it. Everything around me says that I must do to receive, and then God enters from left field with this totally strange concept of love that is impossible to earn.

I hope to have a better understanding of who God is one day. Until then, I’m going to live one day at a time, knowing that I’m only human and that God never said I had to be perfect…he just asks that I love him and love others.