Surely we can change…

I think that sometimes I’m afraid of clinging too strongly to a belief in miracles or a hope for the supernatural.

See, what I’m really afraid of is being let down or disappointed. That’s happened many times in my life, and probably many times in your life, too. But I don’t think my spirit is strong enough to endure being let down or disappointed by God.

And so, I remain overwhelming realistic and even cynical about life to avoid that potential pain. Sometimes I catch myself hoping for a miracle but the thought is always just a glimmer that is inevitably snuffed out.

I wonder if one day I’ll let myself freely and openly hope for more from this life and from God, not fearing disappointment but trusting in God’s promises and goodness. 

I’m moving to LA in January. I don’t know if I’m ready or prepared for that. All I know is that God has opened doors to LA, and so I need and want to walk through them. I can’t wait for what’s ahead. I can’t wait for a fresh start in a new city. I can’t wait to begin a new adventure.