I’m headed to Malibu today. I have a lot on my mind, and a beach walk is definitely in order to clear my head and – hopefully! – bring me some perspective.

I realized this week that I am still in love with the person that I was struggling to forgive. I felt guilty for my feelings, so I transferred them into anger. Though my tactic worked for a while, it’s time for me to be honest with myself. I still love him, and maybe that’s ok. In some ways, it shows that I truly am human. Nonetheless, I need to sort everything out. Plus, this is tricky since I have not been in contact with him since last summer, and part of me believes that that door is better left closed.

. . .

We’ll see how things go.