Everything’s Different

I can’t go online these days without running smack into a headline that spells out the current state of journalism in America. This week alone, The Los Angeles Times cut 75 jobs, and this morning I read that Time Inc. plans for 600 layoffs beginning in about two weeks.

I guess it’s time to give up my dream of working at InStyle as a fashion editor. The future of print journalism looks increasingly bleak, so I’m grateful to head in a different direction, albeit an unknown one.

“The point of your life is to point to Him.” -Francis Chan, Crazy Love

I fled L.A. last week. After working 40+ hours per week for ten months, mostly without pay, it’s time for me to be realistic about my existing responsibilities and God’s calling on my career. I have no regrets about leaving…it felt, and feels, like one of the easiest decisions I’ve ever made. The only thing I’m afraid of is tomorrow, and the day after that, because I have no idea what the future holds. My daily creed is now be faithful today as you prepare for tomorrow. In the meantime, I love spending time in the quiet sanctuary of my parent’s home…I’ve realized that sunshine, starry skies, home cooked meals, and the deepening color of the surrounding vineyards are just a few of the many things I’m thankful for.

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. -Proverbs 16:9

You have an optimistic faith and confidence in life. -From the fortune cookie following lunch today at Pho Cafe in Silver Lake.

Sometimes, I’m optimistic and confident. Other times, I’m scared out of my mind. Right now, I feel like I’m on a precipice between the two extremes, and while my head tells me to run and avoid dealing with this madness we call life, my soul begs me to hold onto my faith.

Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed…he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.-Romans 4: 18, 20-21

I don’t want to waver. I want to believe and trust God’s promises and his demonstrated faithfulness.

Morning Comes

It’s unearthly quiet in Hollywood this morning. Birds are chirping as a gentle breeze ruffles the palm trees, and the sun is beginning to cascade over the facades of ancient apartment buildings, spreading soft, golden light as it slowly edges higher in the sky.

Let’s go, drive til, the morning comes
And watch the, sunrise, and fill our souls up
-Crush, DMB

Sound of Silence

One of the things I treasure most about living alone is silence. After an exhausting week that has tugged at every fiber of my soul, it feels amazing to unwind with a hot cup of tea after a perfectly comforting meal of tomato soup. The first siren of the evening has yet to sound, and no one is traipsing up the stairs with groceries or laundry in tow. Hollywood is almost peaceful…almost. I’ll soak it up while I can since it’s just what I need to get by.